Tuesday, June 1, 2010
feeling shitty as always bet no one bloody cares anyway. Results suck to the core. I've lost a great friend. Life in school is just freaking boring. Still got my comrades with me side by side, and of course the best family in the world (:. Despite me having such a great life. why do i still feel so sad? Throughout my whole life. I've been betrayed by friends. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I dunno. maybe its just i deserve this suffering? since im so lucky and fortunate at home? I still love my life. But things would have been far better. I still consider myself very fortunate though.
People have been asking me why the hell have i been so emo and all. Well.... wanna know the truth comrades?.. its cause i feel very guilty for the things i've done and still am doing to people. Especially the one i love. But i had to, she was mistreating me, abusing me and i dun wish to mention them all here............
Im also emo cause im very upset with my so called friends who have betrayed me. I just realised its no point being nice. After what happened 3 years ago i had already learnt that lesson, but i thought again. I thought that kindness is still necessary in this world, it is. But yet again i've been betrayed. Its very frustrating. She shoved her arrogance into me like as if i needed more than she needed me. I just dun get it. Than why talk to me in the first place after you said you didnt want to talk to me again? No effing sense. Never knew you were like that. Than you bring other people into the picture like as if im stalking you or sth? wtf? i just dun effing get it. And if ur having problems you got no right to take it out on me. I effing hate people who do that. It aint good to hate but guess theres nth more i can feel for such people.
I'm single now. Single and free. I feel really happy but at the same time really guilty and really effing pissed and frustrated. But still, i have no right to say FML. Because it doesnt. And to be honest, if u live in this country and accept everything that this country has to offer which IS ALOT. Than i suggest u bigots stop saying FML. it could be worse u could be living in north korea (:. Always keep that in mind as i always do too. night night (:
Guilt
You'll never walk alone* ::6:51 AM
